Like a Book
It’s been a while since I’ve posted a blog. I feel like life has been like a book. In fact I’ve already finished four journals since my first year at UCD and I JUST started a new one. ^_^ There has been so many ups and some random downs and right now I guess since finals week is rolling around…well it’s coming in two days, the school year is almost coming to a close. Life is happening so fast. Already one friend my age is engaged and another friend can see herself getting married. I’m already 20 and my sister already has a son with another one on the way. The older I get the more life is starting to hit me in the face. Next year I’ll already be one of the upper class-men in my community while three friends dearest to me will probably be pretty far from me. So many things to think about and yet life is still moving on. I don’t know what to do when things start to settle down. Will it ever settle down? What does settling down even mean? sigh? My young adult years are passing by faster than I think and It’s already going to be time to figure out what I’m doing after college. Let’s hope I don’t waste my life away like a bum. =/
I feel like in this life, there’s too much going and doing. By the time we turn age 5, we ought to go to school until we get old enough to graduate out of college with a degree only to make a living to provide for a family in the future until we grow old and die. It’s like a known process that we all go through. I don’t really agree with this cycle of life. It comes and then it goes. Why do we set a goal for ourselves only to live the rest of it from parenthood and on the same way every day? The only prime we have is school from childhood to college years. Once our good college years are gone everything unfolds to pretty much doing the same thing over and over again. sigh. I feel like I’m in a battle against myself, fighting against the day when things become the same for way too long. When things start to get old and the word fun just doesn’t make sense anymore.
Somehow I feel like living a life for God is the only thing that makes sense. Although Ezekiel had to go through so much just to bare the sins of Israel and Judah, he was living a life for God. It wasn’t always sunshine and roses but glorifying the God who created us makes so much more sense than following the man made cycle of life which doesn’t seem like it has much for us except death waiting at the end after a long period of doing the same thing every single day. I know God can put meaning into that cycle of life but for now it looks very dull. …..
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